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[Sep. 24th, 2004|11:51 am] |
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it has been a long time since i have been able to update this. I have had no compuiter at home, and i just can't find the time to get to the library. School sucks as usual but hopefully i will get out of this shit hole this year. I have no motovation and it sucks i hate that school and i dont want to be there so i dont go. This bad attitude is going to send me right into the shit hole and i might not be able to pass. But i am going to try and start on a new leaf Monday morning. Nick and I are doing ok. Friendly's is ok to besides the fact that i and a few selected others are the only ones that do work. Yes i smoke pot but not before i go to work! the kids i work with swear they are from the New York or something, this kid joe drives a mustang and listen to Jammin' all day long while under the influence He doesnt go to school and he works 30 hours a week at friendly's... if he's not a joke here one for yah, This girl Brittany dropped out of school and only works nights so she can sleep off her hang over by the way the school she dropped out of was not college it was high school she has no plans for college and drinks her self to sleep everynight. Is this what life really has to offer, cause if it is then i am out of here this place sucks and i think i am just waiting to die. |
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[Aug. 13th, 2004|11:17 pm] |
Bitch
by Meredith Brooks
I hate the world today.
You're so good to me,
I know but I can't change.
Tried to tell you,
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath,
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried.
You must have been relieved
To see the softer side,
I can understand how you'd be so confused,
I don't envy you.
I'm a little bit of everything
all rolled into one
I'm a bitch,
I'm a lover,
I'm a child,
I'm a mother,
I'm a sinner,
I'm a saint,
and I do not feel ashamed.
I'm your hell,
I'm your dream,
I'm nothing in between.
You know you wouldn't want it any other way.
So take me as I am,
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man.
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous,
And I'm going to extremes:
Tomorrow I will change,
And today won't mean a thing
Just when you think you've got me figured out,
The season's already changin'.
I think it's cool you do what you do
And don't try to save me.
I'm a bitch,
I'm a tease,
I'm a goddess on my knees.
When you hurt,
When you suffer,
I'm your angel undercover.
I've been numb,
I'm revived,
Can't say I'm not alive,
You know I wouldn't want it any other way. |
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[Aug. 13th, 2004|10:17 pm] |
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1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: "... We saw white uniforms through trees and walked towards them."
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: my belts hanging from my ceiling.
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?: South Park with Cathrine.
4. Without looking at the clock, what time do you think it is?: 10:20ish
5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 10:22
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? the radio edit version of Siple Man by Shinedown on my Launch Cast Radio
7. When did you last step outside? when i came home from MB's around 10
8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at?: i started the radio online
9. What are you wearing? black tank top and my purple short undies
10. Did you dream last night?: ahh you dont want to know...Nick can fill you in on this one if he feels the need!
11. When did you last laugh?: this morning with Nick who know over what He always makes me laugh.
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?: o lord everything i mean it down to the last piece of a broken glass thing, tissue paper, big fuzzy letters that say wild, mirrors, pictures, shelves, piant, signatures, meaningless photos, square mirrors, ect.
13. Seen anything weird lately?: Nicks room was CLEAN can you believe it! just kidding baby
14: What is the word most often used in your vocabulary?: jerky...JK wow thats not even funny its actually quite annoying
15. What is the last film you saw?: half of the Yellow submarine, opps i lied it was a home video of Nick's band from like 2 years ago.. some funny stuff!
16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: an apartment in the city
17. Tell me some things about you that I don't know: hummm...o i am half Black.. ha kidding....
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?: umm i wish the sky was Orange and red with yellows and stuff, people wise i would change hunger, i wish no one ever went hungry
19. Do you like to dance?: umm not really.
20. George Bush: ignorant, but Kerry is not far behind.
21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: Kerry
22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: not sure
23. Would you ever consider living abroad?: Definately if i could bring someone Special |
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[Aug. 8th, 2004|09:41 pm] |
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PICS!!!
Addie and I.
ME!!!!
Addie!!!
us agian
i will have more laters
LIKE MY HAIR!!!!
fun times addie it was great seeing you call me soon! |
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[Aug. 4th, 2004|09:17 pm] |
| [ | once agian i am .... |
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| | Sarah Magloulin | ] |
This summer has gone by fast and i learned alot this summer. I am going back with the reality that i dont have as many friends as i pretend to have. i have shallow relationship with most of my friends. i learned being the center of attention is retarded. i learned to listen, and not always be the first person to have a response. i learned if you let love go if its real it will come back and you will appreicate it even more the second time around. I learned to not give a fuck. and i dont know if its good or bad for me. This is the happiest i have been in a long time, but when school starts agian and i get my job going i could have less time to enjoy my surroundings. i know i dont have to pay bills or anything, but if i really think about it this it my last real chance to relax and enjoy myself and everyone around me. By next summer i could be moving i will be starting a different school and i wont be able to stop this tital wave of new responsibility, and its scary.
On a lighter note. my summer had been full of fun late nights and more love then i could possibly ever ask for. nick and i getting back together has been great. I love him more than i thought i ever could. Hes an amazing person and i think i really got to know who he is this summer, we have always known each other but i see him more as a person rather than Nick its strange. its like when you start to see your parent as a person rather then a mother or father. He is an amazing person and i love him to little teeny tiny pieces.
the last 3 years have been full of ups and downs, i have been to hell and back but i am standing here smileing i just hope i can come back in another four years and still be smileing. |
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[Aug. 4th, 2004|09:13 pm] |
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i cleaned out my closet and put a futon in it, i put some candles in there and just lit some insents and relaxed with some music on its going to be my new hideout, shh. I cant wait to get started on my walls in there i want to do some nice things in there. i hope it looks good when i am done with it. sarah my heart goes out to you, call me soon i can come see you soon.
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[Jul. 20th, 2004|04:15 pm] |
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everything i have to say i have already told you, nothing new. |
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[Jul. 17th, 2004|03:21 am] |
wish i could walk down to the getty, but its to late... i heated up some coffee but its still to cold to taste good, i am drinking it anyway because my mouth is so dry. Tonight was fun. I went out to dinner with nick, we laughed and had fun. I enjoy him so much just being around him makes my day worth it, some people call it obsession, but i dont care i love the way i feel when i am around him. Its great getting to know him better and better each day i have learned to appreciate everything about him, because i know what its like not to have it around all the time. i am so happy i did move and that we did brak up because i think i am closer to him right now more than ever, and i love how i feel, i love him, and most of all i have learned to love myself more because of the way he makes me feel, i feel beautiful, and special when i am around him. well now that i just sounded like a 7th grader gushing her feelings for her "AMAZING, BIG HEARTED, CARING, AMAZING MAN!!!" to you guys i think i am going to go to bed. i love you nick your and amazing person.
~night night~ |
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[Jul. 13th, 2004|04:23 pm] |
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sarah and i danced around like hippies behind the hudson elks club with taylor and damion. |
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[Jul. 10th, 2004|01:49 pm] |
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I haven't updated in so long! hummm lets see not alot has happened I went to the beach for a week with Nichole Barry, we had a blast except it wasn't a full week because I had to go home for my game, which we won 16 to ONE horrray! Anyway, the beach was great we have some great memories, Pedro ,the sandman, ahhh there are others I just cant remember but it was so much fun. I lost yet another job, because my o so reliable driver wasn't as reliable as I thought (MY MOM SUCKS).So I am looking for a job closer to home, it looks like.....walgreens or some fast food place. I would work at Dunkin' Donuts but all of nicks friends work there. Well I gotta go clean because no one ese is gonna do it around here WOOOOOH. |
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[Jul. 9th, 2004|05:41 pm] |
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Nicholas Andrew Warren is the best boy in the whole wide world ;).....dork |
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[Jun. 5th, 2004|01:43 pm] |
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nicks moving to florida... i dont know what i am going to do, i am so depressed right now, i might have my mom piut me on some happy pills or something. |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2004|06:09 pm] |
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My English techer raped some kid,.... me and mal called it our freshman year, HOW FREAKY!? |
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[May. 28th, 2004|09:04 pm] |
| [ | once agian i am .... |
| | frustrated | ] |
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| | the silence of my house | ] |
errrrr i am so agravated! i had a bunch of plans for tonight, i had to cancel al of them because i didnt have money, now i do an they all left, i dont have aanyones numbers because my mom threw them out by accident, and no its 9 o'clock on a friday night and i am at home....alone... |
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[May. 26th, 2004|11:57 am] |
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last night i went to a sox's game with my grandpa. We acctually talked like really talked we were both close to tears he told me how much i remind him of my grandmother and i confessed my respect for him it was a great moment for both of us, But i think he is dying. He is getting really wobbley when he walks and he almost spilt his drink all ovr the guy in front of us. He knew that i want to go to college and work with kids, but he asked me like 5 times last night what i wanted to do after high school, and he was serious you could tel he really had forgoten that he had asked me the same question 2 seconds before hand. My grnadpa and I have alwauys been kind of close nad i have never seen him like he was last night, he feel asleep at the game and he LOVES the red sox's, ever time i talk to him on the phone he sounds so out of it. I just hope he does go anywhere soon Because i cant lose him anytime soon, there is still so much that i want to show him there is still so much that i want to do with him. he is the last straw that keeps my family together. my family would completely fall apart. After my uncle pauls death it made me relize that you never know when someones gonna go , and it scares me because you can never explian to someone how much youcare about them and i want him to see how much of a great grandfather he is.... anyone with some ideas? |
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[May. 22nd, 2004|09:17 pm] |
i miss my friends
i miss amanda so much she is in so much physical pain i dont know what to do i just feel so bad, i miss stting on my floor watching old movies while we both were PMSing and eating chips and chocolate.
i miss sarah. i miss staying up late at ight and just talking about how much people suck at life. i miss sleeping in her room becaue i was scared of the squirrels
i miss my uncle paul. i miss him asking my everyday if amanda was comeing over after school, or everytime i left the house he would ask if i was going to nicks, i mis sitting on the porch with him and just hanging out.
i miss all these people becuase i can be real around them and not have to try and be like anyone elsse, i can just be loud dorky me and they love it. |
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